Friday, September 30, 2016

Momma is Under the Weather... and Stress

Well it's Friday.  TGIF.  It's been a heck of a week. 

Lots going on at home...  typically kid/parenting stuff.  I feel like I don't do anything 'right'.  
And the stress and worry about Mom and Dad.  The care taker started Monday...  by Tuesday, Mom was violent with her.  She's still coming to be with her, but it just adds more stress/worry.  We've made the phone call into the care center - hoping to get on a waiting list for the Alzheimer's unit there.  Of course, nothing happens overnight... so more waiting.  Dad needs to get into the fields, so needing more help on the weekends.  

I've come down with a terrible cold.  Well, I think it's a cold?  Tuesday I woke up all stuffed up, but also my nose dripping.  So gross.  By Wednesday, I had the symptoms of allergies - sneezing like crazy, itchy eyes, itchy throat.  The whole sha-bang.  I was miserable, and annoyed.  By Thursday morning I felt awful.  I got into a doctor to get checked out.  I was warm, coughing and just miserable.  Doc said I didn't have a sinus infection - yet, so she gave me prednisone to try to "calm things down up there".  I stayed home and rested for most of the day...  I felt ok by last night. 

I'm at work today...  still not 100%.  Just feeling achy and my cough is loosening up.  Of course Cora is full of snot as well, and has a cough too.  She'll be the one next.  Figures.  I'm pretty disappointed that the essential oils aren't really helping us/me right now.  Huge bummer.  

We'll see what tonight and the weekend brings.  Sure don't need anyone else getting sick - so yesterday while I was home I cleaned as much as I could... 

More to come I'm sure.


Sunday, September 25, 2016

Weekend

Our weekend is over... the last free weekend for 4 weeks is over.  GRR!
Friday:
We grilled at home Friday night, which was nice.  Then Ryan and Kayson went to the Waukee HS football game.  Heading out the door, Ryan said - we'll just go for a little while.  No biggie.  Cora and I hung out - and she was fairly good for me.  We played, we watched her favorite - Full House, then had some popcorn, she read to me! and bed.  And 10:20 rolled around, and Ryan and K got home.  Holy cow!!  But they had a nice time...  Kayson played with Duke and some other friends, and Ryan got to visit with Scott.  Perfect. 

Saturday:
Our daughter likes to wake early.  Hmm.  I hate that!  I'm not going to lie - I woke crabby.  I had terrible dreams, and just felt super restless... and then to have her wake at 6:20...  man, I was not happy.  

Ryan went into work.  Kids and I hung out. They pretty much were on their iPads for quite awhile.  I did some cleaning... that's about it.  My crabbiness continued.  ha.  I made lunch, and then got groceries.  Cora took a super short nap.  50 minutes maybe??  Eek - we are struggling.  We'll still do naps as long as daycare does... so I guess we are at least getting some rest time out of her.  

Saturday night we decided to grab supper out... then home again.  We were home-body's Saturday!  

Sunday:
Church.  Kayson's flag football game got cancelled - due to the wet fields.  Seemed weird - yes it rained a lot, but it was super windy and fairly sunny, we thought it was weird to cancel them!  Oh well. 

I went to a funeral visitation this afternoon.  My good friend, Brenda's sister passed away earlier this week.  She was 46 - had cardiac/heart problems.  So sad, so scary too.  I got my hugs and tears in with Brenda, then headed home.  I'll be going to the funeral tomorrow as well.  But anyway, we enjoyed the rest of the afternoon at home...  Kayson and I went out and got some pants for him, then back home and made supper.  Really quite afternoon.  

I have no pictures of the weekend.  None. 

Wednesday, September 21, 2016

Mom - Moving Forward... one step at a time

Well, I haven't spoke of Mom in awhile...  things are continuing to get worse.  She's becoming violent with my sister, Trish, and a little with Dad, but mostly Trish.  There's something about Tricia that she just doesn't like.  Really.  

Anyway, things have progressed...  however, Dad has been able to get some medication into her through cookies or other 'sweets'.  For the longest time, she was throwing the meds at Dad - but it's good that she's taking them. However... it's not helping.  We are past that point. 

So about a week ago, Trish and Dad had a heart to heart following a very bad and scary episode from Mom.  It was decided that we did indeed need to get someone in the home to evaluate and potentially help.  Now with that being said, we could have easily been denied because Mom is so bad... but it was worth a shot. 

Yesterday, Dad and Trish had an agency come out to the farm to talk/evaluate.  Mom slept the whole time while the lady was there, which was ok - they were able to talk, but frustrating that the lady didn't see how Mom is.  Regardless, after lots of conversations...  we will have a nurse coming into the farm daily (week days only) from 11am to 7pm, starting Monday, September 26.  The nurse will come for 2 weeks (required to do that)... and then there will be another small evaluation/discussion with Dad to see how things are going, etc.  

We don't know what will happen... what that nurse will see...  how any of this will lay out.  But, for the next couple weeks, Dad will be able to do some things around the farm without hesitation and get away without feeling too much guilt.  (Although, I know he will... but hopefully it'll be better).  

There's a lot more to come.  

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

This & That


  • We will have a new baby boy in the Taylor family soon... not me!  Blair and Martina are expecting their 3rd!!  Call them crazy!  :)  They found out she's brewing a little boy this morning.  We are excited!!
  • Iowa weather right now --- summer hot.  WTF.  It's almost the end of September!  I'm so ready for consistent 70 degree weather.  It's so weird dressing for the 60 degree mornings, then stripping down by afternoon because it's 90 and humid.  YUK.
  • I'm starting to think about and lay stuff out for our trip to Arizona.  I really want to be prepared and not frazzled.  I want Cora to be comfortable, and bring as many things that are 'normal' to her as I can.  I'm genuinely concerned at how she's going to be for me...  as we've continued to have some rough days/nights with her.  I honestly don't know what's going on... besides my parenting or her just not listening.  It's been hard.  
  • Ryan took Cora to tumbling yesterday.  The first thing she told me - "Daddy couldn't do my hair, so Brittlyn helped!"  I found this hilarious.  :)   I know he's not the only Daddy that can't put hair in a pony tail!!!  But he'll have to work on that.   Funny.

Sunday, September 18, 2016

Weekend

Friday:
We grabbed pizza out... then back home for the kids to watch a movie, and just relax.  

Saturday:
Alzheimer's walk first thing...  Ryan headed over to Iowa City for the game.  A lost this time... huge bummer.  

After the walk, we got home and let the kiddos just relax (iPad time).  They were both exhausted from the walk - 2 miles is a long ways for those little legs.  We got Panera for lunch, and just enjoyed each other.  I got Cora to lay down for a bit...  her naps are getting shorter and shorter.  But Lindsay and Jill and I just hung out and talked... a really nice time we had. 

They headed home around 4:00, and Hope and Logan came for a visit.  Always a good time with them...  we sat around and talked, played with Kayson quite a bit... and Cora wanted Hoppie to do a bunch of stuff with her.  She loves Hope.  They both got silly and showed off quite a bit - they were so tired!!  Soon Ryan was home from the game, and we went out for Mexican.  Their favorite - our favorite.  Win win.  :)  Had a nice time. 

Sunday:
Church... and Kayson started flag football.  The boys headed out, while I stuck at the house for Cora to rest for a bit.  Again, about an hour and 15 minute nap.  We headed up to football.  It was a beautiful (windy) day, so we sat in the sun and talked.  She did fairly well for me, as long as she had a snack in her mouth.  Seriously.  Kayson did really well - threw the ball for a touchdown, and even ran for a touchdown.  Exciting!  

Back home to get cleaned up, and we met Heidi, Chris and Brady for pizza.  We had a nice time, in between the whining from my tired kids and having to go to the bathroom.  Again - seriously!  Next time we are doing dinner with no kids.  I felt like I hardly got an adult conversation started, or completed with Heidi.  *sigh*

And home to get baths and bed done.  The kids were exhausted, and asleep by 8:20.  Perfect. 

It was a good weekend...  always super bummed that it's over. 

Alzheimer's Walk 2016

A while back I started seeing information about the Walk to End Alzheimer's here in DSM.  I knew right away, I wanted to be a part of it...  and really hoped I could get some of the family to participate.  In the end, I got Jill and Lindsay to come down and walk with the kids and I.  It's a busy time of the year with sports, so Trish and Eden couldn't make it, and either could lil Ryan.  But we will try again next year to get at least all the grandkids to be involved. 

Regardless, we had a wonderful time.  The weather was perfect (got warm at the end of the walk!), but we couldn't have asked for a better morning.  I felt a burst of emotions fly through me several times Saturday morning.  It was amazing to see all those people there...  supporting Alzheimer's in some way, whether they have Alzheimer's or they are just wanting to find a cure.  Amazing.  I truly was in a different world for a bit... just soaking it all in. 








Tuesday, September 13, 2016

Cora - Storms & Struggles

I love my kids.  I love Cora - So much it hurts.  
Cora's been the most independent little girl nearly all her little 4 years of life...  until most recently.  We are struggling.  Big time.

This girl literally acts as if she cannot do anything on her own anymore.  She used to sit and play with baby dolls alone for an hour, she used to sit and color for an hour on her own...  a lot of stuff.  

Not anymore.  WTH!?!?

She literally says "Mom" 1,000 times a night.  I'm not kidding.  And I am really only with her from 4:30ish til 8:30.  That's a lot of "MOM'S"!!!! 

Lately, I've lost my patient with her.  I just can't stand to hear "Mom" that much... and specifically when she doesn't really need anything, it's just become a terrible habit for her to say my name.  We've tried really hard over the past week to get her to do more things with Dad.  He's around - so he needs to be doing stuff with her/Kayson.  And he does.  When she lets him.  It's like she IS the boss and has total control over this.  Aaaa!  

Bedtime has become a struggle as well.  About a month ago, we had a loud storm here right at bedtime.  She really got scared and had trouble falling asleep.  I don't blame her - It was super loud on her window.  I get it.  But every night since then - she asks: "Is it going to storm tonight?"  Every.night she asks.  

And last night, she asked - and we said no.  But at 3:30, it stormed loud!!!  Hard rain on her window, lightening and very loud thunder.  She was petrified.  Ugh - 3:30 in the morning!!!!  We got her settled down... and she ended up sleeping in my spot of my bed with Ryan.  Fine.  The rain wasn't hitting our windows at all - could barely even hear it!  But for about 45 minutes, she struggled... but finally fell asleep.  I layed in her bed... listening to the hard rain!  ha.  

Anyway, she's just been a challenge lately.  I get it, she's a little girl... but man, when she used to do so much on her own and just be so happy and barely whiny - and now we have the whiniest little 4 year old around - I lose my shit!  haha. 


Sunday, September 11, 2016

Weekend - Go Hawks!

We had a nice weekend... 

Saturday was another football game, two down - I don't know how many more to go!  But it was the Iowa/Iowa State game - always a big deal around here!  Ryan and Mike headed over around 1:00 in the afternoon, which was nice.  We had our morning together...  

It was a HUGE domination by the Hawks - which makes everyone in this house happy!  Super fun. 

My Saturday afternoon and evening consisted of hanging with the kids and JeanAnn.  We did have a really nice day.  Kayson had Haley over for awhile, which kept the kiddos busy.  They all did really well together.   I made a quick, easy supper...  we went to the park, then got ice cream.  We dropped Haley off around 7:30.  Busy afternoon with that girl.  She's a sweetie. 

Back home... bath, Full House, bed.  JeanAnn and I watched most of the second half of the game.   Then we crashed too.  Man I was tired!  Ryan and Mike got home around midnight.  Always glad when they are home... and safe. 

Overall a nice Saturday.  Today was church (previous post)... and then this afternoon I did a few errands, Cora took an awesome rest, Kayson went over to a friends house, Ryan cleaned out the garage a little...  just a really nice Sunday afternoon too.  We needed that.  


Kayson, Haley & Cora
Hawks family!

Grandparents Day at Church

Today we celebrated Grandparents Day at church.  Ryan's parents were able to join us.  I asked my Dad to join, and he was going to make the trip, until yesterday. He called and said it just wasn't going to work out...  there wasn't anyone to stay with Mom.  I understand that... and I know he can't leave her for that long, I get it.  But not going to lie - it's very frustrating that he's missing out on all of Kayson and Cora's stuff.  Just literally breaks my heart, and makes me mad too.  Ugh. 

Anyway, I need to be (and am) thankful that Ryan's folks could be here, and be the grandparents for our kiddos. 



Monday, September 5, 2016

Labor Day 2016 & Great Grandma turns 100!

This Labor Day weekend has been one big whirlwind!  We are home, settled, quiet and just hanging out.  We are all tired!

Saturday:
First Iowa football game.  I say it every year - it's fun for the guys and Iowa... but sometimes hate that Ryan is gone all of those Saturday's.  Yes, I could go with, but I don't want to be gone that much.  This first game was a big one for the Taylor's tho --- all the boys were going!  

Ryan, Kayson, Blair, Tate, Mike, Duke, Bill and Colby headed over the Iowa City.  What a crew - and what good little memories for those boys.  That part is great to me... I truly think they all had a good time.  Kayson talked about all the 'plays' and other stuff for awhile once they got home and into Sunday.  I love that. 
The boys!!


Meanwhile, us little ladies stuck around here.  Cora and Landry played baby dolls, fought with each other a little, and then played some more.  Those girls are BUSY!  But we did have a nice day.  We did lunch out, which is a challenge with a 2 year old!!  We shopped at Carter's a little.  Then more playing, a super nice rest out of Lanny (not so much out of Cora)...  and that was our day.  

JeanAnn, Martina and Lanny headed to Creston Saturday night, so they could stay there... sleep better there hopefully.  The boys got home around 8:30.  

Sunday:
Kayson slept in, which was much needed...  we got ourselves going, and headed down to Creston around 11:00.  Being that it was Labor Day - we typically get together with the Taylor's, but this weekend was even more special.  Great Grandma Ann turns 100 years old!  I mean - seriously!  This is amazing to me.  It's so darn special, and brings tears to my eyes.  Grandma Ann is such a great lady... and gave this family Grandma Janis and Uncle Jim.  They've produced some amazing people, and I'm so lucky to be a part of this... and know Great Grandma.  Seriously...  amazing.   So Sunday afternoon we held a open house party for Great Grandma.  It was a great party - and an awesome turn out.  

Following that we went back to the farm to play.  It was a beautiful night (a little too windy for some of us), but we sat outside and hung out and talked.  The kids played hard... and were beyond tired by bedtime!  :)  Lots of fun tho.

The whole gang.  LOVE.

Grand kids, great grand kids AND great GREAT grand kids!

Monday:
We got up and at em this morning after a restless sleep.  I think Kayson slept well, but Cora was restless from 3:00 on... and was up from about 5:00 til about 6:15.  TERRIBLE.   We were off to be in the Labor Day parade in Diagonal.  Great Grandma was the Grand Marshall and all of us Taylor's were in the parade - we either walked or rode on the low-boy.  So fun!!!  We said we want to be the parade more often, cuz were were first, and we were done within 5 minutes!  haha.  But again, so fun, and memorable.  Love it. It turned into a warm Monday morning.




We headed back to the farm to have a quick left-over lunch...  kids played a little more, then we were on our way home.  Both kiddos slept, which was great.  They needed it.  They'll be heading to bed early tonight!  :)

It was a great weekend...  love that we make these memories, and I truly hope our kids know how special this all was. 

Cora - Nose Accident

Friday, September 2 - I picked Cora up like normal, and was met at the door by her teacher.  She explained that Cora had an accident - tripped and fell into a table, hitting her nose.  She was given ice, and was still crying.  (The incident happened about 20 minutes prior to me picking her up).  When Cora saw me, she began crying more... and was telling me her nose hurt.  At that moment, her nose did not look bad...  we went on our way, and got Kayson.  During the car ride, she cried a little, then she'd talk, then she'd cry.  From daycare, to Kayson, to home is about 25 minutes...  by the time we got home, her nose was completely swollen.  I began to panic. 

Ryan was home...  we took a look at it as close as we could.  Asked her questions... she cried, the cycle continued.  We decided she needed to be looked at. Our only option was urgent care or the ER.  We chose the urgent care.  

We waited about 40 minutes...  she seemed fine, but seriously her nose just kept getting bigger and bigger.  It was amazing.  Finally we were able to see a doctor - our family doctor to be exact, which was a God send, and huge relief.  Dr. Hembry is great... and was great with Cora - in between her screams.  He had to really look into her nose, which she hated... we pinned her down, and he looked. 

Her nose is not broken.  As a child her age, there are no real bones in there, just a lot of cartilage.  And for Cora - that cartilage is all jumbled up and swollen.  There was no blood in there... just a mess of cartilage (to make it easy for anyone to understand).  Dr. Hembry sent us on our way, telling us to ice it and that we would probably see black eyes on her.  

Here is the progression of her nose so far.  Crappy phone pics, but it does show the swelling and the bruising.  Poor little girl.  On a positive note, she's in good spirits through all of this. 

FRIDAY PICS:



SATURDAY- swelling.  She doesn't even look like the same girl:




SUNDAY - bruising started on one eye:

 MONDAY - swelling seems to be less, but bruising on both eyes:

More to come.

Friday, September 2, 2016

This & That


  • I'm loving the Iowa cooler weather right now.  We have a three day weekend coming up... which will be beyond busy, but hoping the weather continues to be beautiful.  But I'm ready for FALL!
  • Looking at our calendar for the next two months.  Seriously.  I want to crawl in a hole and hide!  Seems to be super busy...  Flag FB will start.  Tumbling will start.  Iowa FB games start.  Trying to squeeze in time to get to Clarion to actually see my family for once.  I want to see nephew Ryan play football.  I want to see Eden and Lindsay play volleyball.  Too much. 
  • I booked a trip to Arizona.  One of my older cousins is getting remarried in October.  Original plan was for me and Ryan to get away for 3 days... well, unfortunately that can't happen with his work schedule and audits.  I was disappointed... but it's just the way it goes.  So I was then literally talked into it from my sister (and the help of Ryan telling me I need to go) -- "You need to still come with us, it'd be fun."  Yes, of course it would be fun... nice to get away, blah blah.  I knew I didn't want to take Kayson out of school...  so after going back and forth and just being overwhelmed about it --- I booked the trip for me and Cora.  Oh lord help me!  haha.  It'll be fine.  I'm actually excited about it... and looking forward to getting away.  I pray that Cora does well for me, and no meltdowns like we had at the doctor last week?!?!
  • We've had a better week at our house.  Glad we are through the first two weeks of school...  back to this routine.  I really hope Kayson starts getting homework.  (Crazy Mom?  Yes.)  I want to start adding that to our nightly routine.  Right now we are still kind of all over the place with a routine, and with Kayson fighting with me non stop about playing outside with the neighbors, etc.  It's awesome that the kiddos are playing, but when it's time to come inside - it's time to come inside! 
  • And lastly - TGIF.  Here's to the three day weekend!