- I'm tired. Period. I have no energy. I just want to sleep, and I don't sleep well at all. There are a list of reasons -
- I can't shut my mind off... if I do take the melatonin, it does seem to help a little... but I don't want to take that every night??
- I worry. I worry about my family, my Mom, the kids, Ryan, life, money, being safe, being healthy. I have some anxiety.
- My husband snores. And once I'm awake in the middle of the night, and I hear him, I'm awake... I go out to the couch and toss/turn.
- Kayson wakes to go to the bathroom. Which is awesome... he's been better about not actually waking me/telling me, but I sleep so lightly - that I just wake no matter what.
- Last night he had his first accident. He was so bummed. I was too. Actually sad - after getting his bed changed at 2:30 am... I went back to bed, and cried. I felt bad.
- I don't workout - I know it's my fault, I know I'm being lazy, and I need to change that. What is going to push me to do that? How do I find the time?
- I've found that I sleep ok from about 4:30 til it's time to actually wake up, then I really don't want to. And then I'm super crabby. Sorry family.
Cora sleeps well... I probably shouldn't write this out, or say it - I'll jinx it. But she's a great sleeper, and so is Kayson. And so is Ryan. Why can't I be?? :(
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